personally

 i've got a lot of aches and pains

that do not diminish as time goes by.

tried a cortizone shot for my 16 year old

sciatica. it abated for a couple of weeks but

it's still the same month, and it's ba-ack.

since th out of pocket is met for this year 

what with the whole

 almost dying at the doctor's office

 episode i didn't have to pay but as i understand it

from google reviews the shots are 8-9 hundred

so i wono't be doing that again

they tell me there are other options but hoops

that i have to jump thru before exhausting 

reasons why insurance won't approve at this time

cuz you have you tried plan b or b1.a?

and anyway none of what they have comes with

even a 90 day warranty. if you 

die on the table you were told the risks beforehand.

your heirs can fight over the medical bills.

which begin anew on new years' days.

i want to lay down but i want to type.

not neccesarily to write. type.

fingers to keys. mind slowly drift away 

let the birds tell me their stories in 

a language i can only feel. 

****since i already wroonte today, i was going to pay billswhen 

i sat down,

i just wanna drit away down stairs.

gotta put pandora on.

going to go to the reopening of our formerly favorite 

sushi place that has turned into a buffet. 

the staff is the same so we're going to try it.

i feel like trump must have felt on day 732 

of his campaign to get re elected when 

he ttold a flock of christian voters to

"vote ofr me this one time and

you'll never have to vote again"

and no one

called him on it. like yo

bro, what do you mean by that?

how many ways can there be to explain it?

but he didn't have to. and he knew then

he could stumble onstage , say damn thing that popped

into his heat and people would exclaim, hell ya

that's badass .

so if i were trump, there would be no limits

and i feel like i can say damn thing about life

or gossip or fantasy or delusion

with a straight face and proper line breaks post ironically not caring about left or right hand symmetry just drifing off on a the next.. oh! a shiny new balenciaga

*

or maybe i've always written that way.

it disturbs me that this is essentially what he does

in his onstage ramblines we can call them soliloquies

because i think when he speaks he mainly speaks

tto himsself.

what's most depressing is how much room 

he takes up in my head. 

while i and me and you and you and me

pay his rent.

fuck i hate this shit.

impeachment seems a fools binky.

)()()(((

on another note

the manipulation of timing and matter

with hints from the fighting crows

as you approach the red light, see how

confluence works in the gulls flight behind them

and far behind that, a jet ascends from the airport

contrail behind, or maybe a cloud and

twenty feet ahead is the left turn, the cars that were stopped

begin to move when a tangle of feathers 

with an eye watching you looms two feet beyond 

the glass. it catches itself and heads up before

you can react and the light is green now

so you punch the pedal and go.

the whole drive takes half as long as usual

not because you were missing some time

it's just how you flowed thru the traffic 

a free radical skirting cars trucks and lights

thru some combination of charge and spin.

the miracle happens at anderson and waters

where you always get stopped.

green flashes on 3 miles ahead, no cars around 

and seventy is achieved like an UAP

orb in the night sky . you're through

the light like you  had sat there the entire

two minute and 34 second cycle

and earned this freebie.

i heart aoc

 Harry Truman once said, paraphrased because i can't actually be bothered to look up the exact quote which i saw only moments ago on another device, any politicean who becomes rich is a criminal. 

all the rich pols currently imhabiting DC came to mind, facelessly, unified dems and reps coaslescing into the famous visage of the criminal in chief and thought they're all like that, right/

then i pictured Alexandria. AOC . the people's rep. i have wanted her to be president since she first hit my brain. don't understand why she's still just a rep. except maybe it has something to do with her not accepting massive donations from corporate and other rich donors.

here's a woman, invited to the fashion event of the year where everyone attending is a celeb or rich or somehow in media, and she attends in a white formal with a long train bloodstained with the message writ large across her latina ass "EAT THE RICH".  smiles coyly over her shoulder as she walks up the grand entrance stairs. i don't think she was invited again.

she tours with the other honorable member of the chambers, senator bernie, or BERNIE! as the bros would have it. or would have had it if 2016 had been a fair race. if any of them were a fair race. because it appears that democracy, as some famous greek from way back once stated, is doomed to be ruined by the mob.

our founders recognised this, which is why the franchise was first only given to white, male landowners. once they began to include the rabble, electtions were up for sale. whigs and tories both hired immigrants to vote more than once in more than one election. so the history of voter fraud is written with receipts in many history books. which is why it seems a valid target for reform. however, modern methods of voting  verfication have made the need for outright bribery to be employed (witness musk spending millions in individual checks to voters in whatever state that was ). rather than actual voters making fraud, machines now do the heavy lifting. however, i digress.

i heart aoc because she was on the floor using her time to point out the hidden theivery being to afforded to members of the chamber whilst food stamp receipients can just fucking starve. i heart aoc because she is out there speaking up for universal health care. i heart aoc because she endorses mamdani and his policies. i heart aoc because she is representative of the people and she doesn't forget where she came from,  serving. she sees her position as serving, which is what the moniker "civil servant" means.  her job is to represent the people who elected her and she does it in the best way possible. by remaining among them.