Wednesday, March 28, 2007

sum archives

bugpowder dust
every day i go the pond
and listen to this soundtrack hippie craque
sent, i'm framing the original art
work and liner notez cuz
they're original but the thing is i don't
consciously chose to listen
it's just my antenna fell off
and now i can't get democracy now at lunch and then
my fragged out mind forgets
to get a different cd so i've been listening
for weeks to this cd it has
the beatles and led zep and mars volta but
also some peeps
i dn't know who they are like
my favorite is a techno rap , eaten
alive with naked lunch refs my daughter sez
it reminds her of the movie
which the liner notes confirm but i still don't know how
this dude mixed it so fine that no
matter what kind of bird or suv or butterfly like
this dude yesterday
walkin all the way
from stephen dunn inc to my car
for a light
drops in at the pond, this song wraps
the visual in tendrils of paxilTM
as if the opening of scene of kpax was done
in music instead of light.


6 minit pome
outside a half
hour ago suddenly
the sky had changed
from cornflower to billowing grey.
i think of historical confederate
sites, the museum of crime and punishment
the ad's entreaty to get your lunch
at the last chance cafe.

i've spent the whole day producing
a rework of an engineering fuckup.
dealing with the pragmatic fact that
things that look good on paper
often aren't robust enough
to stand the real world

and it isn't till you've built the first
thousand that the customer complains.
then comes the retrofit.
squeezing different parts on to available real estate.
getting impedences to match.
i'm just thankful it's not my job to figure it out
that all i gotta do is remove, replace, retest.




nine of cups

here at work i keep banging
my head against the glass
ceiling but i don't know why cuz
i'm not trying to get beyond it
just away from it.

what a shirker.

i call home and yr depressed
but it's just the usual noises
so i tell ya to smoke some meds.

things look good, then they look bad.
i got some foreknowlege beating me with a forelock.
the same thing's messin you up about the world's
messin me up about us. so i ask the tarot.
it says to stop whining. que sera sera.

seraphim and cherubim line the antique roadside chain
link fence. also some plastic lifesize deer. i can't
imagine why anyone who lives in the mountain
would put fake deer in their yards. you say
"amerikunz r stoopid". i nod my head to the beat
of the burning books. rolleyes when i have to explain
to another voter why gas is cheap right now.
get em while they hot.















anyway. overflowething.
fount of hap
of hap..
piness( i had some trouble finishing that
thought) it's a threesome
i have issues with, electronic cards
notwithstanding the ring tone of my id.

just like a sage advisor's, i ignore
what the damn things are saying.
i lost my psychic in training t in one of my moves
and i'm not gettin it back. still,
when the phone rings, i always know if it's you.





the earth's skin looks like elephant hide
there's bracken in the cistern
you want a drink but it won't be clean.

fissures open, obsidian spews out- large
chunks, like after a night of too much.

she's crying on the phone to you now.
the line fills with sulphur and static.

you don't know what you did
but you begin to imagine you'll never be quenched.






the domain of attraction of the super-attracting fixed point

we thought three lanes
would be enough. but we kept
being born, and each of us needed
a vehicle. cloverleafs shrink
bypasses expand, the angels wings
are concrete but they fly
us above birds and smog alike.
let us give praise.










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it was time for the iteration to go negative.
she could tell from the way the waves sounded less
like sponges than before. she pictured him walking
up the hill backward, to the flat part of the story
where they'd once shared an apple pie cut in thirds.
his caterpillar eyelashes, his hair spun of metaphors.
he's asking her to cut it now. she thinks of temples
and destruction. delilah and divorces.
with each curl he falls further from understanding
just like she didn't, then. but now
then begins to crumble like earthquake, higher
mathematics lose their glow. the fractals
take their bongs and go home, petulant
like lovers with their livers eaten out.
she remembers to kiss prometheus
just before the sun sets.
his hair is so sixties.















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"i wrote that pome with rush limbaugh's dick
tied behind my back"
-chinaski, forgotten tickets from the racetrack














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unwitting


he said you made me
write a haiku, then stood to
push the window closed.
















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what if i said it was all cooked up
would you feel tricked?
i have a hat i like to wear.
it makes me squirm
but no king except the mad
will kill the one wears it.
you plotted the murder of a friend
his rescue was the shiny roads of america.
i flounced to his side like the cartoon that i am
shaking hands with all the motorhomes along the way.
we went seventy in the slow lane all the way cross georgia. antebellum houses snored in their sunday best
while you and i tortured disney hits for their lunch money.
for miles we thought of tifton whenever the signs
told us to. tifton, the reading capital of the world.

you amused us with gifs, but the cell service
cut out near the cottonfields. so we had to roll
our own jokes, starring billy bob and the national
arts council & education bureau. "no one reads billy bob,
especially not goin ninety down seventy five!"
but he endured. forgot the onepointeight percent
probably would see past the subterfuge on the billboards.
they fired him after the first year, but ads still stand.
think. tifton. in the summer. think hell. think god
it's october and the weather is stunning.
after the bar b q, i drive. the sun is warpaint thru the pines
lining the roadside with bright bladed
vestigial memories of our genocides.
i want to eat three cigarettes on the edge of the cotton
while i stare at that light, but a winnebago towing
a race car trailer, a miniaturized double cargo truck
weaves into my lane just ahead. i turn off the sneaker pimps
light a cigarette, limp toward that distant x, that siren wart
on the limp dick of this country(erect if you look at the damn
map sideways from space) where my history is writ
trailer large and flood plain jangly
a.waiting the next iteration of desire.










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we thought three lanes
would be enough. but the fuking lemmings keep
multiplying
we're widening the I
66 - 88 - 110 - all the way to PI infinite
allowing 2.6 yards for the just born interstate
and 6.2 for those droppin off intestate
cause this causeway's never done
and the cliff that we're boring through is
always cavin' in
too fast for the struts and the trestles to keep up


and each of us needs a 4 wheel drive
to feel lucky on the cloverleafs shrunk
to 3-balled clubs grasped in hairy hands
of the scary trolls under every underpass
too high and bonk on the head
canoe srongs fre of the bungees
lemmings dying like flyballs mid-tracj
stalling with that heavy sudden fallin

i tell you
dying like flies from the bypass
caught in a mitt
in the infield
shrunk to secondary trunks
tight as a surgery
i got one change of underwear left
gonna trade that for
a pair of wings
on a pink elephant
heavy as abutments but they fly
above the glove compartment
moths and bugs and smog alike.
as grey as gray
let us give praise

i got a ticket to ride










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and then it just goes dim




Thursday, March 15, 2007

phone home

it's the new toy 4 the new toy boy
typically yippically weed bound
n fastening tight, fascinatingly light.
soon we'll get to the part where you got
the means and i got the remedy.

then it all came down
he shuddered oh hot
like the hurricane lamp
in the corner in the dark
he flicks a lighter and the smoke
and the fire
and the smoke and the fire
and the fire and the sound
and the sound of the bombs
going off all around

finally got that chorus right

not this one

an other one with a real nacho stache
and a new yorker smile.
that's the where with all i wanted to show you
but then i found my modesty in moth balls
around the corner, under the table
with its thumb in its mouth. big brown eyes.
the snarling smile you'l snaggle me to.

the poem
written in
the marg
ins of math

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

well mutherfuck you 2 universe

exponential

dervish to tornado to hurricane
tumbleweed mama
head and torso matching plates


ok so love strode it in.
emotions in the moon big as boots.
then we find out it's pluto with patticakes


it's supposed to be about evolution
the great gods intone from their space dimples.
and the point? never answered even tho he's asked it
like
a thousand times.
she's faintly hearing the laughter now.
why are humans so dumb it chuckles.
and we answer cuz u made me that way.

i mean
this hemorraghe of hormones needs to stop.
this anti depressent combines with that downer
to create the balance we say we want.

let's see what the night brings.
every visit a postponed denoument.
even the fucking tarot says so.
be decisive. be strong. swift. the race
the race to
the race goes to the omigod it's a spermatozoac cliche!
fuck u 2 muther
fuckin
universe. i'd like to take the charts and scribble
dirty words like tandem, basilica, partnership
all over your pristine mountains. then it'd look like
reality, way up close. graffitti lives bound and gagged and soundly
whipped up to a nose close. hold your breath till u die.
it won't change a thang.
taboo ()(the next level.


so this is what i'm saying(italics here)
if i 'm a cork then what's i'm plugging?
naw i don't need to know
what i need to know is how
to get rid of a louse.
keep biting me biiiiting me
and ummmm i think i'm ready to move on
so i become my own self fulfilling prophecy
and drive you out. but you're so animal
you whipped dog you nasty cur
you come back. it's the only home you've known.
time to leave it to beavers to show you how to build a new one.
a new one.
this one's mine and you've usurped it long enough.
i think i've learned all i need from you
and things ain't gonna change. anymore lessons you could
give me would be repititions. unless i'm willing to change
to go threesomes in some desperate attempt
to hold on to you. well, at least it isn't a baby.

heh.
mortal tyre's and transfrixed minarets.
staged antix and frantic mechanics
biordial matchmakers with a savings coupon.
tyrone bars and hoochi kootching, ka ching
ka ringee ding ding.

not my cat she says. it takes a village
but right now i'm not part of that.

right now
i gotta i gotta go
helpwithhomework
let's run.

Monday, March 05, 2007

two matic

the sixties are in the oughts or was that aught
just exactly what you'd want from a world going dead.
wait! the scientists have been paid to recant.
there's plenty of time left. methanol cocktails for the masses!

you've got dylan, hendrix, csn. what's up with my cloud?
tell you what steven, you got that right about paranoia.
and what do i have to lose, really? love? never was.
a chemical reaction based on pheromones or the shape
of your eyes. if you leave me, i'll live. just
don't leave me pms. shit, what am i talking about?
i wanted him gone gone last week.
then i let him talk to me.
comes in with a story bout how the boiz
at the bar he was treating to beers
told him i'd been in there picking up mens
while he was working. omg.
omg. like where would that come from? angry lava men?
or maybe not, maybe that's just his excuse
for being the "passionate" scorpio that he is.

one things for sure. this year is gonna be full fireworks
the pig demands it. i was just complaining
not too long ago about feeling nothing.
nada. what is that word/ hard to remember when blinded
by the light is on--bruce version--ummm detached.
i was detached from my life. whatever happens, happens.
comes from being weary. can 't afford the surprises.
moon shadow now. how is it this boy's only 22?
don't they have any of their own music? lol. no really
it's just so odd to hear these oldies as newbies.
sure he knew a few of them, but it's so weird how he found
leo sayer! leo sayer! my gott. i'ma go have to google that.
leo sayer.


well, that was more than i thought.
get this, in england, they call an all day drink & pub run
a leo sayer. man musta been a major partyer. also
he looks old. which he is. and he's a hissy baby
about celebrity big brother
which i dunno, is that some kind of help the kids thing
or some kind of watching you thing.

i know how bad i'm an anachronist.
the times are squeezing me from both ends.

i wonder if i'll be able towrite again
when you finally decide it's time to leave.
i'm taking my premonition and running with it.
you''ll be gone soon. right now, that's all good.
how do i cope with it when you tell me you love me.
just mouth back syllables? isn't that all you're doing?


but i can't fake it. well, not with someone who knows
how it's sposed to feel. why is my love always so possessive?
i'm so fuckin greedy. stop it. just enjoy it.
you always knew it wasn't forever. stupid jit.

premontion

then you were chatting
telling her how much you liked the care
package she'd sent, especially the hand tied
bags of tea with the scrips inside.

i went across the bridge
looking back, snot covered
and knowing about the quarterfinals.

then you were playing guitar
with her and said the groove
was just what you'd been looking for.

what could i do? pack your bags
politely. sure but i didn't.
then you said you'd leave instead.
that's when i tell you i love you.

we don't make love for weeks.
but go ahead and fuck me if it makes you feel better.





















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i guess what i thought was going to be
became a completely different thing.
today i try to not expect, and the pattern
ebbs and flows. little gods making mudpies.
mudpies stacked to the top of the bank
and the river overflows.

i live in the moment and the moment
washes me away. built on spit and mascara
splintered with sharp ashes. i want
to turn to the last page of this book
see all that ink run. history of us

culled into your fantasy , zodiac all unbalanced,
planets pulling like the giant swoop of a raven.