no true soul love cuts

i dunno if i believe that. sorry finchy
i know the deep ache of loss
far more intimately than i want to
and even tho i tried to not fall in love
with the boy i did. even tho i know
he will never be long to me
i let him love me and now
we are having such a hard time
telling each other goodbye. maybe we each
are the same, not able to move on
until there's some other in the picture.

like how i clung to the love i had
for my last ex until there was a next one
until he'd hit the headwall so many times
i finally believed him, after the crack
where my love flowed in and his flowed out.


but now i have a different puzzle piece to chew on
and so does he. we aren't telling.
not to be machiavelean about it
at least not here, i have no use
for the sex god he wants to become.