water or altar

chat fight in the drama trailer, crews at eleven.
i can't bear to transcribe it , it's all such a sick deja new
he asks me don't i think my writing has become
more concerned with death or has it always been that way.
hey man,i dunno,  that's what i got you for, triangulation!

but i don't tell him. this title was meant for a better poem.
 like leona's smile, meant for a better home.

i just can't drown or burn all the bad choices i made back then
and nothing  i can ever sacrifice will be enough for the maw that is her mama's soul
thanks to you and i. so yeah, i'm tired of trying.
self help books are fine n all if the ppl you're in group with
actually come to the sessions and read the assignments.

unfortunately one of the main players
wont get with the program, wont admit the need
for a program on her part, thinks her choices are finefinefine.
well then do it without me baby. here's a torch, light the fire.
here''s the ocean, sink or swim, here's a knife, just cut the cord already willya
two babies in da house is one too many
this mama gonna blow.