temperament of hermit and death

see, i  thought it was going well
even though we were talking about
past relationships, well, yours,
and the way we neither one of us
trusted, truly, the long term benefits
of sparks, how they start fires
and when the smoke clears, it's ashes and
penance for years. years.
"i hope you don't take this wrong way
but i don't want to feel that way about you, i want
to get to know someone, have a good time
go out to dinner, a movie, without lust getting
in the way." i sipped on my magarita
ducked my head then looked up with a smile
"well, that all depends on whether you think
i'm hot or not  ". that's when i blew it.
"you're an attractive woman but that's
kind of the problem".  i see.
not there yet i see. i see. well, then
thank you for dinner and coffee
and i certainly hope this has been
one of your more pleasant
internet dating experiences,i won't
bore you with my
i'm kinda leery of the whole
friends with benefits
story after all.