must stay awake

so you want me again.
this chase is just too much for me.
everytime i let you go
you come back, bloomerang
and the bit shoulder contact.
could i make him
like you or could i
yes everything could be.


i think i will write myself to sleep.
can't tell which found napkin to write
the take on. i mean it's just too much

that two days after i decide and then
on the night of
you all the sudden realize your deep
attachment to me, even now even this
sexpoloration you have to go thru
how you'll keep it on the dl
like i'm not going to know
every goddamn time cuz we've got a bond
and you know what i want to place
that bond with someone who'll appreciate it.

who i s not you boy. not you.
and he is not scorpio either
so nix that shit about who's best in bed.

gawd. i have to call work. i feel sick.
really really sick. you always do this to me.
i'm beat. i'm sick. i'm sleepy. mondays. christ.

no more calling you in the morning.
it is like that song if i fell.
except not.
i didn't want you to cry
but i knew you would.
and i didn't care if you did
anymore. so the question is actually llllllllllllllllllllllalalala


you cake is gone.
and i can't care anymore that it is.