2way dream

title by bjork

i said but you ARE the wife.

if we define it by household contribution and

you said if i were the wife, i'd be doing a better job.

i have been 

chewing on that 

every since. 

listen i know you

 have an astrological need

to sabotage yourself 

but can't you just wear the damn shoes?

look,that's a cinderella fit. 

that would make you

either the wicked stepsister 

or prince charming. 

nope that makes me the fairy godmother.

glass is for the young.

*(&&&)))))

i explained to your sister how

it is with mental illnesses and how it's not

that i've sought it out or made it 

some kind of hobby it's just

i have encountered it since 

i was  teen, it's become part

of the fabric of my life

sort of like cancer

gets america's

 recurring empathic 

sympathies. i'm not

gonna justify that. 

just think about it for a minute

i mean if she had diabetes type 2

would you shun 

your niece you must

know that her actions that night

were a result of the psychosis

playing out. she's scared

she'll do it again. she needs time

to recover, encourage

her to go to school, help 

take care of her grandad, she's gotten so much

better these last few months

in a safe place, with only spiders to fuel

her paranoia. i think 

sis will finally get it when she

hears how your daddy

let his grandbaby stay there tonite

to help him if his meds stop

working entirely and

 how she got him

to drive to the ER

before his head exploded.

*(&

i'm keeping secrets

in a bee house

between the combs. 

the hum is deafening.

smoke would be a mistake.