selfpyschotherapy

we were walking back to your place
and i was bitching about you and you
and the marriage
i stayed in too long see i was
wondering why i have
such a difficult time letting you go
seeing as how we hadn't even touched
in what feels like years,
how it took me years
to get over you and when i did
finally believe you love me
you didn't anymore, how
it seems like everytime i fall in
love it's a well deeper than the one
you're in so that obsessive
came to mind &
more than once to the tip of your tongue and i know
it's true, i do obsess, look at how i still
wanted to be your friend because we had a lot of time
between us, did a lot
of growing together but how
i didn't want to be your friend because
everytime i get near you it's alchemical gold
so that would just be
frustrating
way more than when you and i get
together these days so that brought the subject
of love vs lust - i should be so
over that at my age, shouldn't i
shouldn't i be able to distinguish the two
by now but you know my wallflower
history, the lifetime i spent
married to the wrong man, the first love
obsession, then 2ybf then rebound perfection
then re-you and re & re till
i'm sure your head
was spinning like the atom
in mine so aren't you
glad i'm finally to the point that
all those nasty
fights where you told me yeah
go ahead leave no one else would
ever want you
are faded enough for me
to be the one
who finally does go?