disintoxication

sittin on the okc cloud
the question is would you considrer dating
 someone whose spirituality is the primary focus
of their lives? i think i did. would i again?
maybe. it depends on the matrix they use.

catholics are difficult. they  see god as outside themselves
even many who've left the church and look at the soul
differently. to them "god" can't 
be the aconceptual wellspring. i wouldn't be able to relate
to a baptist or a muslim either, if it were their
driving force, i'm pretty sure it would drive
a wedge. any religion that imprinted
on a child can be devastating to mind expansion. i believe
one must feel their own truth. i was raised christian
but it didn't take . lucky to be a free thinker
able to pick and choose from what ws introduced
to me in later life. i'm so glad my parents did that for  me.
or rather, didn't go the other way. religions
can limit our accesss to   spirituality.
 


i just know what feels right to me. i wouldn't fight you over it
but i won't give my inch either. spirituality is such a personal thing
which  kinda drives my point home 




just sayin.
















&^$##





reading of bataille, the beheading
society that could  find no executioner
and thus dis banded as war began. gorges
and his fascination with the
cults of ecstatic pain.  

watts points out that the same nerves
carry pain as pleasure.
it's our interpretations
that make the difference.
surfing the edge of the orgasm
or the caress of the knife
until sensation becomes
overload.release
short circuit eros





gorges was  outre  for his time.
today you can watch it
on freeporn download dot  com
which fetish would you like?
nothing is taboo anymore.

nothing is sacred.that's what happens
when you kill god.



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what will the pendulum's
swing bring , sway  , sharp, sickle.








*)(&)





no one understands time. i wanted to steal
a line about it from you but i forgot my journal.













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the most erotic moment was
when you and i disappeared
inside each other
home at last.























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so the question. i answered postively
hope it doesn't bring  on some jesus freak.