cranial cardio

ah man, where's my pipe?
i have to get up to get it.

i can't believe i'm not OVER
this already. but like the magic sez
you have to get to the point of no pity.

i guess i still pity what might have been.
poor little homeless relationship.

aborted ,distorted, misported.

my girl said she went to the doc
and i was wrong. the feotus is fully
formed at 14 weeks. i said i know
i looked it up on wiki, that's the outside
but i'm telling you i felt life at 20 weeks.
not before. however you want to judge it
for yourself, is what you have to live with.
and i can live with my abortions.
how brain function and formation is only
primitive at this state, how any baby
born at 14 weeks is not going to have
a life even if they could keep it alive
because it's not like the brain is formed
enough to hold personality, memory, emotion.
it' s not some bonsai human yet.

i wonder she wondered, silently,
if you would say this even if they could
prove to you y ou are wrong.

she spends her life wanting to prove me wrong.
deep seated resentment for not leaving him
earlier in her life. eh. this is how it goes.
one tries to do the right thing
but it ends up backfiring when the right thing
was to get the hell out of an abusive relationship
as soon as possible.

woah. that's the key isn't it?
now, let me find that goddamn lock.