death card

the end of one cycle
and the beginning of a new one.
yeah, i think this new one
will be sans the male
because you are all alike so involved
in your petty hurts and prolific dreaming
that you can't even see the other
or listen and grok what she may
be saying. and you wonder why
you can't find that "true and lasting"
love. you have to give of yourself
so there's room for the other. women
used to know this. i don't know if we do
anymore. but the chili peps do

give it away give it away give it away now.


i'm sorry that we never got to be
known to each other. i feel sometimes
as if it were my fault, that i behaved
too much like the male, or too much like
the mom, or too much like a princess
needing rescue or too much like
something i was growing into and out of
at the same time. too much like a human
perhaps. the original sin, putting on flesh.


so what will my new cycle contain?
lol. asking does not warrant answer.
can i just be in the moment for a minute?
zen is its own power. detachment, is that
what you want?
yes, red balloon kept two inches from
the ground by gravity. i like the ground
but it's toxic.
maybe this is your problem. you can't accept
that earth is dirt. that everything which grows
comes out of it. so naturally there's some clots
and flavors that will be part of it. perfection
is for the gods.
well, ya'll are bitches. is that perfection?
in our world, yes. DO NOT QUESTION THE ACTIONS
OF THE GODS. we don't.
you mean you have gods too?
this isn't about me, it's about you.
well i'm dying.
yes, we gave you that card. now do something with it.
i've been trying. it's been slow suicide, i'm smoking
more than a pack a day.
what good will that do? dn't kill yourself. let what
isn't going to grow, die. stop clinging to it.
you mean love?
not love stupid. the subject of it.
i want love to die.
no you don't. stop being obtuse.
ok, i want a particular love to die.
no, you want it to transform. not gonna happen. it is
what it is.
oh maud, don't you have anything but platitudes?
call them what you will. not gonna happen.
so then, my core beliefs, that one can change if one
wants to, are bullshit?
well a pig won't be a cow.
but can a cow learn to think?
in a cowish way, yes. they think all the time.
but they're gonna have cow thoughts.
and pigs will have pig thoughts?
duh
but they both want to be in some other pen. what
happens then?
well then they gotta die and get reborn as that.
metaphorically?
no cows n pigs can't transform. they don't have
the windings for it.they have to die. get eaten.
can humans transform?
sometimes.
ah.
i hope i do.