harrow and hammer

why do they all come in upside down?
i feel the need to explain too much
give me a seltzer.

yes inverted, except when i want them
to be. am i really that weak?
is my self image the tower?

except the real meaning of the tower
is not catastrophe but divinity. the cushioning
of yod into check your reality right here.
right now.


ok so. ruin of a set of ideas.
the thing you think you know because you build it.
i'm gonna have to destroy my image of what i wanted
because bein with you will not allow that.
i wanted to travel. to go from house to house
a guest, the wanted guest, the nomad. but you
can not be part of that.. you have obligations
that won't let you go. i have to remember
how that affected you so long ago,when my kids
were smaller and you were more free.(( how i ran
away to something sexier, how it snagged me
and made me human, after all. or not, how maybe
i just turned into my father. how it all emptied out
and maybe you would have been the one
if i could have kept the delusion...
which i never could )) so now , faced with
the same possibility will i follow suit?
or will i go and come back , over n over
absence igniting the spark . i won't have
a room of my own. i will need a room
of my own.
i will have a room of my own
but i will share a bed.

yikes. i won't have a room of my own.
but you work at nights.


tower. tear it down to build new ones.
perhaps a sharing is possible? you have the pink
room, i'll have the purple one.





9

next is the atmosphere

when the stars say don't try it
i usually do. i like to invert things
play the fool. this time inversion's got me
by the balls. tho i don't have any, reality
falls

is perfection inverted merely reality?
flaws create strife it's true or flaws bring out
the beauty of the thing that's you...

also the state is transitory,
one of the things about perfection is that
entropy works on everything. so it never lasts
cuz once ONE little flaw comes in
it's bye bye perfect. i guess you
found that out, ay?



so yeah, obstacles reveal themselves
imperfections are magnified. but hey
i get bovine when i'm in heaven.
just gotta teach em what shoes is da boss.
that'll show em their place
in the snaggly line
the offcenter nose
the stroke that couldn't be painted over.

need a burger.









*(-p






finally you make me smile. a union
in balance, the thrill of arms akimbo
on the plane of a rope. i like it . i might
keep you. show you to someone i love.

oh, i might have known if i let you continue
speaking that things would not be rosey.

too much of a juggling act
despite no balls to put into the air
see, no balls

but it could be momentous, full of energy
we otherwise would not have. a palsey spaz
moving us into this age thing
with a degree of fun and finesse.
a watercress sammich and lime
something that could be fine.
couldn't it? said the youtth
to the coach. come on, i'ma team
playa.









(*^^^

profit, inverted. yeah. heh.

but you know i'm a bad risk
tho i'm not exactly profligate still
i disdain money. but why is money
even in question here? i have some
you have some. together we can make it stretch
tho i'm not into pricing rummers as much as you.


so, eh, instead of being where i should be in life
essence of feminity n wealth n hoarding, i'm here talkin bout balls.
but the thing is, she's NOT SHARING.
bloody yuppie bitch. of course i'm the inversion of that.
one over me anytime.

or a waste of your time. a tower in the making. ohmygod. if that's true then don't do it!




(*&&(()\










you tho, you're an original
a magician the real deal magic.
must be your airy nature, the way fire
plays across your smile
the backhand of nemesis. against all
logic. you make things happen with your will
and your won't . indeed. something quite nice
hhmmmm, maybe i should tear down those seven year
temples. wise ass nj nietsche love not withstanding.

but i don't keep to keep nice things. that's why
i'm a bad investment, tho you wouldn't agree. but YOU would.
heh.




*()(&&




the future, the impossible. indeed. romance
and the judegement of the flesh
how it demands a higher calling as when
the gods inhabit us, burn us bright
and leave us spent. this is why we're
drawn to each other. imo. ho. so.


a strong push for change. something i've been saying
you dont do. something i actually haven't been doing
tht i can see, tho maybe the subtleties have eluded
my prying eye.


so. to share or not to share with you?
well wwjd?

no fear. you'd say it, and that's what i must too.