on the way back from slapping my son

i thought about the brou haha
and i think maybe i'm putting
too much energy into trying to save
the box. why bother? everyone
has lost the spirit of community there.
it always seems like visiting a corpse.


and why do that to ankush. his words.
our misunderstandings. ithink dj had the
best answer. yes i understand it
but your statement makes it a vicious thing.
as does my mistrust. so...

wtf. i'm wrong. should go and delete it
but then how to know wrongness?
think on it for a day or so.
mother bear syndrome perhaps?

sigh. dancer's right. ishould just
let it go. the one we knew is
dead and i keep bringing it up
over and over. dancing with a corpse.