yr not home
she took a nap so she'd be ready
when you came home. but you dont.
you get off
and walk by the point, a beer
sashays over and you drink
and another, you drink
a woman talks you up cuz you look
so lonely and cute and she
doesn't wonder why you go home
with her what she wonders is how long
this leaving will take.
will it come fast, a bubble pop
or will your discovery eat at you slow
you don't love her you never loved her
how could love be such a psychotic bitch?
meanwhile she writes.
take a hit and calms her stomach
the sheets lie crumpled in sympathy
twisted as her gut when she imagines
the going. she never thought she'd
fall for this shit again, but here she is
wondering if you're dead or love is.
living on borrowed time they told her.
then she told you. and you deny it.
what do they know about my love? i'm unique
but it turns out not so much baby
but it turns out you are only another
in a long line of little headed thinkers.
she knew when it happened that this
was hopelessmess clinging to life
a temporary fix. she just wanted to sleep.
she was ready to spread her legs
without a heartbeat but apearantly not
because she let you in. a chink
a small foothold. how could you love
under those demands? give and give
and still she doubts. why does she doubt.
she tells herself over and over no
you will not drive down to the point no
you will not see if that's where he is
does he know tht she wakes without him?
searches the feather comfortor
for his smell? finds it, names it gone.
she writes--
dear love
well it's happening but you dont realize it.
the breaking away. cracked in the iceberg.
do you know that emptiness that beer seems
to fill? i am the source of it.
but fuck what you're feeling. what about me.
how this resonates back to the marriage
how this resonates in my empty belief, so large
a space for echoes. he used to tell me i'm going
fishing and i'm almost sure he did. but
hours gone and no word hours and hours and the night
presses on without you how would i begin
to trust and need you? you made me believe
as much as i'm capable of believing
then whompus. it's so funny i decided to end
persistence and now our breakup will be
chronicled on a new blog. i feel it, glacial.
the iceflow becomes lava and then pouf
steam. air meets water. fog fog fog
how true to me will the tarot be?
kiss brad pitt and get a free designer
handbag. i miss. you should be able
to stop by the bar without i go insane.
without calling. there should be freedom
and trust in our. and there is , there is.
i trust you to betray me.
the tarot sez maturity. oh yeah. oh yeah.
the tarot sez the dominator.
The card represents the critical factor for the issue at hand. Two of Wands (Dominion): Mature individual. Ruler. Attainment of goals and needs. Boldness. Courage in undertakings. A dominant personality.
ok i do another. i don't get it. who is sposed
to dominate, what will dominate. maturity.
couragio. undertakings . justin needs
to move on move on move on.
looks like th\e tarot agrees with me.
check out this reading:
card at the top left represents how you see yourself. Two of Wands (Dominion): Mature individual. Ruler. Attainment of goals and needs. Boldness. Courage in undertakings. A dominant personality.
The card at the top right represents how you see your partner. Queen of Pentacles, when reversed: False prosperity. Suspense. Suspicion. Responsibilities neglected. Vicious person. Untrusting person. Fear of failure.
The card in the center left represents how you feel about your partner. The Tower, when reversed: Continued oppression. Following old ways. Living in a rut. Inability to effect any worthwhile change. Entrapment in an unhappy situation. Imprisonment.
The card in the center right represents what stands between you and your partner. Rejuvenation: Atonement. Judgment. The need to repent and forgive. The moment to account for the manner in which we have used our opportunities. Rejuvenation. Rebirth. Improvement. Development. Promotion. Effort that ends in just reward. The desire for immortality. Legal judgment. One should carefully consider the effects of present actions on other persons.
The card in the lower left represents how your partner sees you. Four of Cups (Luxury): Wariness. Aversion. Disgust. Disappointment. Unhappiness. Bitter experience. Stationary period in one's life.
The card in the lower right represents what your partner feels about you. Ten of Wands (Oppression): Overburdened feeling. Excessive pressures. Problems soon to be resolved. Striving to meet a goal or a certain level or position. Possibly using power for selfish ends.
The card in the center represents the present status or challenge of the relationship. Three of Wands (Virtue): Practical knowledge. Business acumen. Enterprise. Negotiations. Trade, Commerce.
oi lol, i'm the dominator
and he's oppressive
what a fine pair.
well, i'm sleepy now
the weed makes it easier
to simply fade and fall back
to dreaming where nothing
really matters you know
including the overuse
of cliche.
hooray.
when you came home. but you dont.
you get off
and walk by the point, a beer
sashays over and you drink
and another, you drink
a woman talks you up cuz you look
so lonely and cute and she
doesn't wonder why you go home
with her what she wonders is how long
this leaving will take.
will it come fast, a bubble pop
or will your discovery eat at you slow
you don't love her you never loved her
how could love be such a psychotic bitch?
meanwhile she writes.
take a hit and calms her stomach
the sheets lie crumpled in sympathy
twisted as her gut when she imagines
the going. she never thought she'd
fall for this shit again, but here she is
wondering if you're dead or love is.
living on borrowed time they told her.
then she told you. and you deny it.
what do they know about my love? i'm unique
but it turns out not so much baby
but it turns out you are only another
in a long line of little headed thinkers.
she knew when it happened that this
was hopelessmess clinging to life
a temporary fix. she just wanted to sleep.
she was ready to spread her legs
without a heartbeat but apearantly not
because she let you in. a chink
a small foothold. how could you love
under those demands? give and give
and still she doubts. why does she doubt.
she tells herself over and over no
you will not drive down to the point no
you will not see if that's where he is
does he know tht she wakes without him?
searches the feather comfortor
for his smell? finds it, names it gone.
she writes--
dear love
well it's happening but you dont realize it.
the breaking away. cracked in the iceberg.
do you know that emptiness that beer seems
to fill? i am the source of it.
but fuck what you're feeling. what about me.
how this resonates back to the marriage
how this resonates in my empty belief, so large
a space for echoes. he used to tell me i'm going
fishing and i'm almost sure he did. but
hours gone and no word hours and hours and the night
presses on without you how would i begin
to trust and need you? you made me believe
as much as i'm capable of believing
then whompus. it's so funny i decided to end
persistence and now our breakup will be
chronicled on a new blog. i feel it, glacial.
the iceflow becomes lava and then pouf
steam. air meets water. fog fog fog
how true to me will the tarot be?
kiss brad pitt and get a free designer
handbag. i miss. you should be able
to stop by the bar without i go insane.
without calling. there should be freedom
and trust in our. and there is , there is.
i trust you to betray me.
the tarot sez maturity. oh yeah. oh yeah.
the tarot sez the dominator.
The card represents the critical factor for the issue at hand. Two of Wands (Dominion): Mature individual. Ruler. Attainment of goals and needs. Boldness. Courage in undertakings. A dominant personality.
ok i do another. i don't get it. who is sposed
to dominate, what will dominate. maturity.
couragio. undertakings . justin needs
to move on move on move on.
looks like th\e tarot agrees with me.
check out this reading:
card at the top left represents how you see yourself. Two of Wands (Dominion): Mature individual. Ruler. Attainment of goals and needs. Boldness. Courage in undertakings. A dominant personality.
The card at the top right represents how you see your partner. Queen of Pentacles, when reversed: False prosperity. Suspense. Suspicion. Responsibilities neglected. Vicious person. Untrusting person. Fear of failure.
The card in the center left represents how you feel about your partner. The Tower, when reversed: Continued oppression. Following old ways. Living in a rut. Inability to effect any worthwhile change. Entrapment in an unhappy situation. Imprisonment.
The card in the center right represents what stands between you and your partner. Rejuvenation: Atonement. Judgment. The need to repent and forgive. The moment to account for the manner in which we have used our opportunities. Rejuvenation. Rebirth. Improvement. Development. Promotion. Effort that ends in just reward. The desire for immortality. Legal judgment. One should carefully consider the effects of present actions on other persons.
The card in the lower left represents how your partner sees you. Four of Cups (Luxury): Wariness. Aversion. Disgust. Disappointment. Unhappiness. Bitter experience. Stationary period in one's life.
The card in the lower right represents what your partner feels about you. Ten of Wands (Oppression): Overburdened feeling. Excessive pressures. Problems soon to be resolved. Striving to meet a goal or a certain level or position. Possibly using power for selfish ends.
The card in the center represents the present status or challenge of the relationship. Three of Wands (Virtue): Practical knowledge. Business acumen. Enterprise. Negotiations. Trade, Commerce.
oi lol, i'm the dominator
and he's oppressive
what a fine pair.
well, i'm sleepy now
the weed makes it easier
to simply fade and fall back
to dreaming where nothing
really matters you know
including the overuse
of cliche.
hooray.
posted by hiccup at 10:44 PM
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