every light a mystery

she calls  says i'm scared
an operation for cancer
is not a thing you can dismiss as much
wine as  you can drink
 it lingers, lint on black
you brush and pick even run
a tool over it pieces cling
and you look like a fool
and i say it doesn't matter
as long as you don't wear black
she's like huh? and i'm like lint
doesn't really show on anything else
not the same way in fact if you wear
a rainbow they're  droplets of water
and if you wear red, swiss dots so
listen it's just the cats i mean i'm sure
i'll do fine
 but there's chemo i hear
i'll be tired i'm not
a napper but i laid down today
and slept for two hours
when tired sleep i murmur you've been
running and working round the clock
since the diagnosis yes, so
i i've hired someone to take care of them,
my sister can't, she's so flighty, i think
 it's dementia
they have such different needs
 she's a nurse and i always
 thought i'd have to take care of her but
 surprise, just like
swimming and kissing and running
 away from home it looks like
 i'm going to have to go first