crying over you

the daily show's coverage of your speech
is the most subtle form of irony i've witnessed
this season. i hate that we've lost the capacity
for hope because the machinery of public manipulation
works so well. watching the empire crumble
and put its people to the task of believing in a ceasar
again? some new blend of messiah cum roosevelt? telling
that they don't mention the old socialist, want
to stay as far away from verbotten
philosophies as possible, no
wonder my sis thinks he's the antichrist.

it almost hurts too much
to write this whole analysis, and you probly wouldnt
need it if you watched the damn clip








so

the problem is i believe in the system.
the system. it's true the founding fathers didn't enfranchise
the rabble. but they gave the code the capacity
to absorb change. they looked after their own self interests
but also the interests of the future. what they made
was a morphable king.

you say systems always move toward
entropy. this is just the nature of matter. fuel
to be feasted on by the next system arising.
ok, i give you this. still we all want immortality
don't we. scuse the tangent. i'm stoned.



i'm sure the fathers and mothers who birthed this system
were stoned too. i mean jefferson grew the herb.
i gotta give props the moms. i believe the patriarchs
were evolved enough to understand the wisdom in the counsel
of women, although not evolved enough to give them legal
rights to the fruits of the system. ahem, another tangent
unneeded but interjecting itself into the process.

the blanket continues to weave itself.
a root system brings flowers from underground.


gotta pee. brb.



















where was i?


somewhere in the process of deconstructing
the watershed over barak. i can call you by
your first name now, can't i? i mean, we're family
after all, aren't we? the family of we the people?
the immortality of an ideal that began
with bloodshed on the land, the only possible
means to disenfranchise tyranny? an embodiment
of the struggle to become unified, even if that unity
means genocide of the stalwart alien? aren't we
at least
all sinners?




don't drink the water

the daily show are a buncha scamps. ironists of the finest sort. i ask john,
does my earnestness deceive you? amuse you? make you envious, even?
cuz that's why the clip made me cry. that and pms. envy of the ability
to believe. the loss of innocence, incapacity to trust
in the bright beauty. too many elections.
too many times playing the anti who. s
and the video just heightens that loss.
the manipulation of facts to force a story
we've read so many times before, and its inevitable denoument.





the mole digs deep into the soil
its home is hidden in the folds of the earth.
water seeps into even rock, cracking it.


tell me how deep does the well between you
and the elite exist? could your core
be changed by power? you're an intelligent man,
i wonder how much megalomania you carry?
a leader has to be confident of his call, so a modicum
is necessary, but self doubt is essential. i think
i've seen enough of your character to believe you
have this. but i might just be projecting.

you seem to be an idealist who's pragmatic. do you understand
the nature of the beast because you've spent your life living it?
they seem to want turn you into a truman show. do you like that?
sometimes a leader arises who deserves the post.
that was the dream of the constitution. that a human being
could rise of his own volition into a position of leadership
and power, and effect change. that the very rise would distill her
into the cast which would be beneficial to the people
the country, the community, as a whole. the concept of rule
of reason was the ideal fostered, despite compromises
that had to be made at that point in time in order
for it to be implemented. thus, the birth of politix.
the politrix of gettin er done.


rugged individualism don't stand a chance against the herd ya know.
christ on the cross proved that. this is why we can't all be artists.

still, i wish you'd have chosen gov. bayh. he was on the daily too.
barak the candidate's choice of advisors
is what's shaking my faith. that's prolly
a good thing. faith like that is a dangerous
road into complacency.

it's good to be skeptical
about our leaders. it's what the framers
wanted, lest we get mired in revisionist
history( a redundancy of terms
that implies the last
vision was the "truth" and thus leads us
into the scarey waters of doublespeak.
though i advocate
the use of entropy in language, that's
only to let it survive
in a sedimentary way. omg. yet
another tangent. i've been writing
too long.) it's good to be skeptical but
it hurts to let go of the deus ex machina
that was my hope in you and in we
the people. so i still cling.
just barely, a bit nauseous from hanging
here by fingernails. i just, don't know if the toxicity
is survivable. are you real chemo, or just a placebo?