only the educated are freezing

i am blinking undoneness.
half baked with cojones on the grill.
i am jill's tattered black skirt
dripping off the back of the sushi bar.

i am fascist with leave taking. goodbying
all the yous. farewelling every we. pumping
the hands of theys and hes and shes till
the well run dry. dry as bone salt. porcelain
white enamel a drop of chocolate diamonds.
mounds connecting like tesla cars refueling.
a plug into sun, creepy like broken piano notes
and melted barbie doll shoes.


already, look, without you here how my eyes
droop and falter. so what if the pork chops
rot on the counter, forgive the polynomials
for needing a break but i think the whipping
i gave means take away my cat. you always hurt

the one who loves you. i think god
is giving props for that in shredded wheat spoonfuls.
open wide is your next line and the one after that means swallow.
there is no you for me to throw against. alone

like when i was born, again, after you came and went
midwife to nietzsche. cesarean power in the powder room.
capitalize that fucker, bitch. why did i wait so long to write this time>
i think i'm afraid of what's gonna come out.

suddenly stroked midnite, my eyes fold into a moat
and the castle is inside. barbary shards sharpen knives
with hilts of of jackals,all lion kinds and lauded.
and the cat just wants to stop being in heat.


if i write about the color red again
you would be the sunset and i would be water
coming out of your eyes.